Tuesday, September 24, 2013

Home Sweet NEW Home

I am excited to finally post these pictures and share an amazing story of love and blessing.

I say it began in May but really God was weaving this story long before that.  Last summer, we moved from a two bedroom condo to a new house that gave our growing family and energy-filled kids more space to run and live life.  After a long and crazy selling and buying process and much prayer, we knew this was the house God had specifically for us.  We loved it.  But it needed a lot of love. It was outdated and had way too much wallpaper.  The walls in the picture below?  Those were beige with gold sponge painting.



 We slowly began cleaning it up throughout the fall and winter....taking down that half wall above, pulling out bushes, trimming trees, painting, tearing down multiple layers of wallpaper.  We received a lot of help along the way.  But there was still so much to do and with three little ones, our margin of time and energy was low.  I often wondered how long we would just stare at walls with half torn down wallpaper.

Fast forward to the spring.  After my father-in-law was diagnosed with stage four cancer in May, we decided to spend the summer with him and our family in Pennsylvania.  House projects seemed insignificant at that point and our priority became packing up for the summer.  So many people helped us get ready to go....watching the kids, running errands, even helping weed, plant and mulch our barren landcaping areas just to add a little life to the yard.

After a whirlwind couple weeks of getting ready, we left.

On the drive to PA, my phone rang.  It was a friend who had offered to paint my dining room while we were gone, since I didn't have time to finish it before we left.  She casually asked what other projects were on our list for the summer...just in case she had some free time, maybe she could work on something.  I told her I would email her the project list I had made before our plans for the summer had changed.  And that was that.

Now, this friend happens to be incredibly gifted in making things look beautiful. I can't explain it...you just have to see how she transforms anything ordinary into something amazing.  She also happens to have an incredible heart to love and serve and an incredible capacity to get things done.   And we happen to have a pretty amazing community of people who love to take care of each other and family who loves us a lot.

So as we lived life a few hundred miles away, our house became a work zone.  For eight weeks, people were in and out of our house....stripping wallpaper, painting, repairing, remodeling, decorating, mowing, trimming, cleaning, organizing...etc. Everyone who helped was sworn to secrecy so we had no idea all that was being done.

Imagine coming home after eight weeks away...emotionally spent, spiritually poured out...hearts torn between wanting to stay with hurting family and wanting to be home.  Knowing that whatever condition a house is in, it is still home...still comfortable, familiar and refreshing.

And then imagine walking in your front door and not seeing half torn down wallpaper or the hole in the floor or the half finished bathroom or holes in the screens or boring beige paint or unfinished trim around the doors or overgrown bushes or spots on the carpet or the dust and dirt that would naturally accumulate when left untouched for eight weeks.

Imagine, instead, seeing freshly painted walls, a brand new bathroom, painted trim and doors, amazing decorating, a beautiful tile solution to that hole that would have stayed in the floor for years, new screens in the windows, clean carpets, clean windows, fresh flowers and scripture throughout the house, an organized pantry, a stocked refrigerator, frozen meals in the freezer, fresh fruit on the counter, and dinner hot and ready in the crockpot.

Any one of these projects, or even just a clean house, would have been a huge blessing to come home to.  But it was all done.  Years worth of projects done in eight weeks.

 I don't really have the words to describe what we felt when we walked in the door, except that I cried. A lot. And felt loved.  So overwhelmingly loved.  It's unreal.  Because this doesn't happen.  Friends don't do this.  Even really good friends.

Except that this does happen. And friends do this.  And family.  And some people we didn't know that well.  And some people that we have never even met.  Not because they have nothing better to do with their time.  These people have jobs and houses and kids.  In fact, the friend who organized this whole thing has four kids.  And the friend who redid our bathroom has a new house that needs more work than ours.  And people came from not just down the street but from across town and even from out of town.

Why?  That's what our neighbors, who watched people go in and out of our house all summer, wanted to know.  Who does this?

People who love Jesus and as a result, love the people around them.  They may tell you that they wanted to bless us because we sacrificed our summer.  But all of what went on this summer... us moving, them serving us...it's all part of a much bigger story going on.  It's the gospel in action....a reflection of God's love for his people even when we don't deserve it.  A picture of how God is making everything new.  How, through Christ, He breathes life into dead places and restores what has been broken.  It is a picture of love and sacrifice and undeserved blessing.

And in the end, this is just a house.  It is an  incredible blessing and the gift of a new home has, in many ways, refreshed our family.  But I know that the newness will fade.  Things will be broken.  Dirt will stain (and already has).  My hope and comfort cannot be in a house because a house, no matter how beautiful, cannot fulfill.  But what happened this summer points to Jesus and Jesus does fulfill.  He doesn't fail or fade.  He is where life is found.  His love for us is so real and His glory is so great.  Everything good is from Him.  I am thankful for this truth.  And I am so thankful to live life with a community of believers who know this truth and daily live it out.  Our lives and our relationships are not perfect and are often messy, but our pursuit of Jesus is what unites ordinary people on mission together to bring heaven to earth.

Here are some pictures of what we came home to!  You cannot fully appreciate the newness if you didn't see the house before.  But hopefully it gives you a glimpse of the amazing work they did.
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
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Wednesday, August 28, 2013

Late Night Wisdom

Last night, we had a 2am visit from Mr. Newton.  He climbed in bed with us, which doesn't happen often so when it does we let him stay for a while.  As he settled in, he said, "Jesus wants us to love our enemies."  

Not quite what I was expecting at 2am but I loved it!  We have been talking a lot about how to love people that are mean to us after a difficult time playing with a neighbor the other day.  Sometimes I think that what I say goes in one ear and out the other, but that was evidence that they really are listening!

Monday, August 26, 2013

Six and Kindergarten!

Happy 6th Birthday, Mr. Mister (a few days late!)

On the morning of your birthday, we looked at pictures of you when you were born.  You were so tiny and cute.  Here you are throughout the years ...
 
Newborn

One
Two
Three
Four
Five
Six

You are such a big boy now and fully boy in everything you do.
Intense. Creative. Confident. Adventurous.
I love watching you grow in every way. Your mind is always thinking.  You ask a lot of questions, some of which I don't even know how to answer.  You are figuring out the world and learning how to trust even when life doesn't go your way.  You are a rough and tough warrior with a loving and compassionate heart....a beautiful combination .  Someday, you will change the world because you don't take no for an answer.  Right now, that can be hard on this mama.  But that's why I pray a lot and daily remind myself to see far beyond today. You are a gift and a blessing and I am proud of the boy you are becoming.

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Your birthday was also your first day of kindergarten!

 

We all walked with you as you scootered down to the bus stop.
 


You joined the group of neighbor kids so confidently. 


You came back for some quick hugs as the bus pulled into sight.


Then ran off without looking back.


You sat by the window in the first row.  As the bus pulled away, you smiled and waved out the window and that's when the tears started.  Mine, not yours.  Just like that you are grown up.  The days are certainly long but the years sure are short.  Thankfully, you were home by lunchtime :)

I love you, Mr. Mister. 
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Sunday, August 25, 2013

Cool Shirts for a Good Cause!




Our friend's sister is in the process of adopting a little sister for the sweet girl she just brought home from India a few months ago.  Check out these shirts she created and is selling as a fundraiser.  She has already raised over $3,000 from this and it ends Monday, Aug 26th at midnight so check it out soon!

She is also a photographer on the side and is taking family pictures as another fundraiser.  She just took our family pics on Friday night...I can't wait to see them!

Check out her blog here to see her story!

Friday, August 2, 2013

Going Home...

Tomorrow we go home.  We've been gone nearly eight weeks.  It is definitely bittersweet...a happy-sad day, as they used to say in the Cabbage Patch Kids book my mom read to me when I was little.  I know it will be good to be home and I am excited to see people we haven't seen all summer. We love and have missed our family and community there.  And I can't wait to see our house...some pretty amazing people took it on as a big project this summer and we have no idea everything they have done except that it will be an incredibly beautiful blessing.  So there is much to look forward to.

But we are sad to leave as well.  It's hard to leave the day to day life of being in this journey with our family here.  It's been a summer of love and growth for everyone and our relationships here have deepened tremendously.  It has been such a gift for my husband to spend his days with his dad and for us to live daily life with my sister-in-law and her family.  We really love them and have so enjoyed the time we have had with them.  Can you believe that after eight weeks of living together, we are all sad that the summer is over?

So we head home knowing that this transition is just as much a part of our journey as coming here was.  We trust that the Lord goes before us and is with us and is our rear guard as we go home just as He was when we left.  We pray that the spiritual growth that took place in us this summer...the depth of our relationships with Jesus that I believe can only happen in desert seasons of life...we pray that that would remain even as we settle back in again.  We know He will continue to work even after we leave and we continue to trust as we anticipate what is to come.

Thursday, July 25, 2013

This Summer

I have struggled with how much to publicly share on my blog about this summer and all that is happening.  There has been so much to process and I'm not sure that my blog is the right place to do that when it comes to such personal family matters.  But it is a huge part of our lives right now and I do want to document some thoughts and remember what God is doing in the midst of the heartache.

For the kids, this summer has been an adventure.  A chance to live with their aunt and uncle and cousin who they normally see on brief visits.  A chance to visit new parks and pools and museums and to meet new friends.  And for me, when I remove myself from the reality of my father-in-law's cancer, those aspects of this summer have been fun as well.  This town we have lived in for the last six and a half weeks is a charming small town where the other day we walked down cobblestone, tree lined streets, from the pharmacy to the library to the park to the bakery.  We live a five minute drive from Grandma and Papa's cabin on the lake instead of five hours.  And we live daily life alongside family that we love so much but don't see nearly enough under normal circumstances.

But all of that is only part of the picture.  Behind the fun of this summer is the pain of walking alongside parents far too young to be in a battle such as this.  Their house that sits on a lake and 11 acres of beautiful land is still a magical place for our kids, who don't fully understand the circumstances.  But for me, the magic is gone.  The pain is real.  I want to scream in the face of this new reality and tell it to leave...to bring back the peaceful time where our visits were filled with tractor rides and boat rides and campfires and adventure packed days with Grandma and Papa instead of doctors appointments and scans and tests and news no one wants to hear.  Some days, I still can't believe this is real.

But it is real.  And so, like no other season of my life, I have chosen to cling to what I know is more real than my circumstances - my sovereign King, Jesus, whose promises have become more true to me now because they are all I have to hope in.  He is my hope...the One who is close to the brokenhearted and saves those crushed in spirit (Psalm 34:18).  He doesn't leave, He doesn't fail, He is not surprised by any of this. So no matter the circumstances, I trust Him.  Even when I don't want to and when I don't understand and when my heart screams out why.  I cling to the truth that He has overcome sin, He has overcome death and He has overcome this world.

In this season of life, I have also experienced a new level of being daily sustained by Him.  Not only in the pain of my father-in-law's sickness, but also in being away from home for what will be a total of eight weeks by the time we leave.  I have said many times this summer that logically, this should be much harder than it has been.  The five of us invading the quiet life of my husband's sister and her husband and daughter, who have so graciously allowed us to live with them in all of our noise and choas...living away from my family and our amazing community and the comfort of our home....all of this should be hard. But really, it hasn't been.  There have been one or two hard days, but God has so incredibly lead and protected this time and He has sustained me in ways I couldn't experience in my normal life at home.  And because I have been forced to depend on Him in huge ways, I have begun to invite Him into the tiniest, most seemingly insignificant areas and have experienced the peace of His presence there too.  For that, I am thankful.

So do I want to change my father-in-law's circumstances?  Yes.  But I trust so fully that God is weaving a beautiful story even if it's so hard to make sense of that now.  I am going home a different person, having been refined and refreshed in the desert.  I know this story is not over yet.  Our Storyweaver is never done working, always weaving and creating and orchestrating far more than we know.  I know there are harder days and more pain to come, but that is true of everyone's lives because the reality is that we live in a very broken world.  I am thankful, however, that the end of the bigger story going on is not eternal pain and heartache, but redemption and a world made new again.  Thank you, Jesus.

Tuesday, July 9, 2013

Summer Fun

Despite the hard circumstances we face this summer, we have managed to have some fun, too.
The kids and I have done lots of swimming and playing and have even met some new friends along the way.  And they've had more time with Daddy than usual so that's been good for everyone.

Here are a bunch of random iphone pics of our summer fun.

 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
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